Just sitting here. Missing my hubby, who is out camping with his brother and 2 of his boys and our boys. I am sure they are having such a blast. This past month has brought so many emotions to our fast growing family. We moved to Idaho. Such a great decision for us. We are loving being so much closer to our church family and being abe to easier serve at church. Thomas has started a kids/youth choir at church with our Pastor's wife and my dear, dear friend, Karen. The kids are all loving it and so is Thomas. And I love sitting in the back watching it all come together while my 3 year old girly who thinks she is a ballerina dances and twirls around. I have 20 days left until my due date. We are all so, so excited to meet sweet Ella Mae. I can't belive how fast this pregnancy has gone by. And then while all of this good is going on. Thomas lost his job. Just like that. Bam. You're done. Zero income. What? God, don't you think this timing is really bad?! Didn't we just move in to a new house and sign a year lease? Don't I have a baby coming in less than a month? Aren't we supposed to be buying curriculum to start our home school this year? Let alone food and bills....and God whispers into my ear shhh be still and know that I am God. I will care for you. I will get you thru this. But you need to trust me. Fully. Give it to me and have joy. Be an ensample to all that believe...and then, then I can breath again. And smile. And know with absolute surety that I and my ever growing family will be just fine. Because Jesus loves me. Even me. And over these past 3 weeks I have watched God work. More real than ever. He has blessed our family with THE most amazing people. I know that He has a plan. I can not see around the corners of this rough river, but He can. He knows how it will all turn out. And I want so bad to learn whatever it is that He is trying to teach us. I have recently prayed for compassion. A real compassion for people and their souls. I know we can better reach out to people when we have been thru some harder times. So we can not only sympathize but really empathize with others. So I thank God for this situation. Everytime I think about it. I thank Him and I pray my heart and attitude will be in the right place. And that I will not give place to the devil and become bitter. I am not a strong person and I tend to overthink and get angry and bitter. But I have a God who knows all these emotions, faced them and got thru them without sin. And I think turning to Jesus Christ will get my family through this little valley better than anything else. So pray for us, as we will have quite a few decisions to make in the very near future. God really is good ALL the time.
