Blighted Ovum

Dear friends and family,
This is so hard to type, but I can so much better explain things in writing than in voice right now. Well, I went into the midwife today, due to some spotting that I have had this past week. I have just been feeling very uneasy this whole pregnancy. And I have had several friends have miscarriages just recently. But I had a terrible feeling on Sunday morning, when the bleeding was a bit heavier. So I was hoping I could get in today instead of having to wait for my appointment on Thursday. Sure enough this morning they called me and said the midwife could meet me at 11. So off I go, shaking and feeling rather sick to my stomach. My dear friend watched my littles for me so I could go. When I got there we were unable to find a heartbeat. So we headed upstairs to the ultrasound room and started up, only to find...nothing. She called it a blighted ovum, which she explained is a type of miscarriage where the baby either never develops at all or stops developing at a very early stage. She said she didn't believe it to be any further than 4 weeks, if that. And the body doesn't recognize that the baby has died. So oddly enough, even though our baby died very early on, I still became sick and tired and sore and all the other "normal" pregnancy symptoms. I am so, so sad. Sad that around March 1st I won't be holding our new little bundle of joy that we were all so very much looking forward to. Sad that I have to tell everyone. Sad that this has happened to me. I do not understand why things like this happen. But what I do know is that I serve a great God, who not only knows what is best for me and my family, but knows exactly what and how I am feeling and can and will help me to get through it. I covet your prayers at this time, and so you know how to pray more specifically. I just want to be able to get through this little storm still praising my God. And physically that my body will do what it needs to do naturally to "let go" of this pregnancy. Thank you for praying, Love you!
Love, Talia

PS Sorry if I haven't actually answered the phone if you've called. I am just not really up to talking quite yet.